女孩变女人

今天下午遇见了一位相熟的朋友吃饭，回家后的心超复杂的， 因为看到自己的丑。
对父母,对这成长的家真的付出得太少,得到了太多父母的爱护。 父母亲为这家及我们这难搞的子女的付出太多了。心中也感到惭愧。每天讲话很厉害,行动却最慢又最少的我， 衆是把母亲搞得气上八下，气得要命。而那衆是说“随你们喜欢”的老爸也对这女儿的行为早已时空见惯，已练到了无话可说的境界了。

也因为在被爱的环境成年，自已也渐渐忘了原来要得到爱的同时自己也应该学会付出及牺牲。也因为对爱付出太少,对爱情的恐惧渐渐增加及害怕。这个月,也不知吹什么风听了很多关于婚前婚后,从称叫安娣变成叫家婆的分别。“你不用洗碗,去客厅休息" 婚前是男方母亲对女子说,婚后是媳妇对家婆说。

做女孩时,不想做就会向自己的妈妈装傻性子或装可怜，母亲就会不冷心的答应帮忙。但是这种幸福也因为成长而也在人生告一段落。。。
失落的感觉也从心中生起，原来爱情是那么吃亏的玩意。

寂夜真心朋友

谢谢你,我的一群真心朋友。今刻的我正在想念你们。一群难得的同修们,我们在这一世又见面了。
也不知下一世的我们又会办演什么角色，也不知我们下一次相会的地点会在那个世界的角落。
人生,就是那么的好玩及有趣,今天我做你的朋友、明天我做你的爱人，后天也可能变成你的仇人。
今天你快乐,明天的悲伤、,后天的小气。。。
人生吗。。。就也只不过是如此。。。。惜福..

In this early morning, the day after final exams 2008, summer holidays is coming, 4 months free to go anywhere, do whatever I want to do...
Feeling appreciate to my family, and my true and sprituals friends who always support me, give me full of courage, give me love by scolding me to make me awake to face the reality of society, and encourage me to be a "real" human.
THanks... I really recover from my depression, insomia and others psyhiological sickness...Really thanks. I can feel now, I am stronger than before, I have more confidence than before, I know what I am doing than before, I have a goal and understand the purpose and my mission of this life...Yah..
I am improving and growing up.
A sunshine smiles and lovely heart is be with me.

过客

不论他或她，不论相遇有多久，不论他或她如何对我，
不论彼此感情有多好；终有一天彼此都要分开，
笑一笑,回头一望原来我也只不过是他或她生命中的一位过客。

When people treat me bad, I feel better by thinking in this way. It makes me feel much better. However, it is true, even our closest and love one, I am also acts just as a passby traveller/guest in their life...

早晨的笑容

早上,我笑了,因为我还存在这世上。
我的生命变得很快乐及美好,因为我的生命有你的出现,陪伴我一起走这一段人生，陪我一起写我的人生故事。
感恩，感激一切的安排，因为在我最无助及困难时，兑会有人出现在我眼前伸出他那温暧的手带我离开。。。
卫塞节快乐!!!

One day, I realised that how luckly and wonderful in my life. I am luckly, not because I not need to worry about the financial problem, but it is because I got lots of good and wisdom people surrounding me, be my friends, be my teachers. When I in difficult situation, I always look at the buddha image, I know they must have someone will appear to me, giving me some advices, let me understand the meaning of life.
Every happening, not matter it is good or bad, it has a message bring to us which is so important to us that lead me become more strong, more mature and more knowledgeable. Gratitude!!

思念

人与人之间的关系像个绳子，彼此都被绑着了。
今天的相会, 换来了明天的离别。
当看不见,听不到彼此的声音时,
心中就浮现了他的影子，思念也随着来。。。

Time flight so fast,,,I am growing up day by day, my parents are getting old day by day. After that, I will get older day by day, and looking our new generation growing up day by day. The circle of life...
This is the feeling when I miss my dad,who works so hard and always need to go overseas, my sisters who live and fight alone in Philipines, my sisters who are enjoying their wonderful students life in Australia, and friends who live somewhere part of this world...

The learning journey

"迷路的旅程，让人体验比别人多的苦,也得到更多精彩的人生故事。感恩"!

"三年了，一位迷路的小孩终于看见了一线光出现了,带她离开那片黑暗的内心世界。
她终于明白了大地的哲理， 痛苦是一个让她学习及成长必走的人生之路。
也因为在黑暗挣扎了太久，让她明白只有改变自己的心态及心情才是最疼爱自己的方法。
她笑了。。。因为她找到了"

After back from England, I was like standing in the middle of T-junction, losing direction. There were many unexpectated happening to me, giving a chance to learn to live in the reality crucial society. By looking back now, yah, it is true, I learned a lots, and be more mature, be more strong and persistance, the most important is I knows what I want and What I want me to be in the future.