Spritual journey- Sarnath,Varanasi,India Nov 2009

Themes of the trip:

Aloka Novitiate Program 2009

Location:

Sarnath,Varanasi, India

Duration:

13 to 29 Dec 2009

Organisation:

Aloka Foundation

Sarnath, the place where the Lord Buddha preached his first sermon...the teaching of the four noble truth, the first buddha disciple ven. Kondanna who realised n attained the sottapana when the buddha preached the sutta..the first 5 monks became arahants...

My another inner journey starts from This holy place,
where gives me opportunity to reconnect to the lord buddha;
where enable me to experiece and feel the supreme positive energy left by the lord buddha for us;
In this holy place, in this noviatiave program, it gives me a chance to further develop my spritual life experience, leading me to see the path i should take refuge for and knowing the purpose of my life more clearly...

In addition, We have such a great fortune that able to met his holiness of the 17th Karmapa, who gaves us a short talk, blessing n able to took group pictures with his holiness.....

I sincerly gratitude to my parents,Ven. Mahinda,sister sumitra and sister sumagala who gives me lots of support and encouragement in this journey...
My turning point is start from this journey....

My new slogan " I will be a good daughter of my parents, when the time I am ready,I will be a good daughter of the lord buddha"...

23102009

The very last lecture...
3 years have been passed;
23 Oct 20009,last day of my lecture in the degree course...
Waiting for the very final degree exams....

Looking back to these 3 years university life in Monash uni..
I still have lots of things havent do; havent learn; havent experience....
Meanwhile, I have learned lots of things, have experience lots of fun and adventure

What is life? what is the meaningful life means to us?
Lots of question marks arise in my mind...

I had lost my direction in the past 3 years,
luckly
Now my direction and what I want to do and be after graduate is become clearer and brighten
May the sunshine always be with me and guide me to a prosperity and happiness path of life....
May god always be with us...

Sharing article "我无能为力，但是我能了解。"

如果有一天你看到我的悲伤，你发现我的黑暗面，
你什么都不需要做。。。
因为我知道，对我，虽然你总感觉无能为力，但是我知道你能了解，我需要的是你静静的陪伴。”

Sources from 作者：阿册
http://www.ulement.net/2009/08/sansan/14920-%e6%88%91%e6%97%a0%e8%83%bd%e4%b8%ba%e5%8a%9b%ef%bc%8c%e4%bd%86%e6%98%af%e6%88%91%e8%83%bd%e4%ba%86%e8%a7%a3%e3%80%82.html

Changeable life, life is changeable

THe puppy enter to my life....
Puppy is like my baby...
Because of her, I learns how to take care, how to give love, how to contribute my time...


A sense of happiness arise, when see her grow up healthly, when see her welcome me back home, when see her go outside to poo and pee, when see her playing happily....

Morning become more meanigful to me, a incomplete mission for me...
I wake up automatically around 7am because my morning mission is to bring her out to the garden, let her pee and poo, then see her exciting face when I am preparing the breakfast for her, then I let her to plays alone in the garden...
It is time for me to clear my room, to sweep the floor, to mop the floor, washing away the dirt and dog smelly replacing with the fresh fragmented dettol smell....
My first time in my life, learning to keep my room clean, happy and enjoying doing housework
because of the puppy, my baby...
Around 9am, the puppy will wait outside the dog, waiting me to open the door for her to come back inside the room...
A time for me to clean her feet, to dry her wet feet, to put on puppy fragemented powder to make her smell good, feeding her with vitamin, then she is happy to go back to the room and having a nap....

4pm...A time for her to have dinner...She likes Can food, not dry food;
she likes fresh chicken, not dry food;
A time for her to have poo outside.....a time for her to plays outside...
Now, she doesn't like to stay outside because it is hot,;
she doesnt' like to be alone outside so she follows us closely;

10pm, the most exciting and energetic time for my puppy, little diamond
She become so playful at this time...
She act like a mad small dog....
She is barking....

A moonlight is brighting the late and dark night, a time for us and Diamond go to bed..A sweet night, because we are still together with each other...

Love is hidding everywhere,it is waiting us to explore it...
Life is changeable, so we will not get bored of our life...

改变,变化

再过三个星期,就要迎接＝＋五岁的到来,告别＝＋四岁的束...
╴路走来....＝＋四岁的那最后的三个月,改变了我,也因此我的生活开始有了变化

与童话那首歌比, 大姐,我想小甜窝这首歌里头的几句话比较适合我

我还在寻找 一个依靠
和一个拥抱
谁替我祈祷 替我烦恼
为我生气为我闹

幸福开始有预兆
缘分让我们慢慢紧靠
然后孤单被吞没了
无聊变得有话聊 有变化了

小酒窝 长睫毛 是你最美的记号
我每天睡不着 想念你的微笑
你不知道 你对我多么重要
有了你 生命完整的刚好

小酒窝 长睫毛 迷人的无可救药
我放慢了步调 感觉像是喝醉了
终于找到 心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好
我永远爱你到老

现在的我发现这些人都围绕在我身边,不只是–个,是大于一....
这包括了父母亲,姐妹,狗狗.........Etc

Our home new family members-golden retriever

28 May 2009...
A new puppy born in this small little planet.
It name as golden retriever,female, white mixed with gold colour with fur
It can be described as cute, calm,soft...

24 July 2009...
In the midnight, as usual, dad would come to our room, giving us a chance to "complaining, gossiping and upgrading the latest home news" to him...
A group of family members, Jing shown dad the video of FEIBOU, how clever is feibou, our topic for that midnight was about dog...
Dad did not like dog, mum did not want to have dog because she knows her daughters are "3 min hot attidude" and lazy...
As usual, dad still did not like dog, but his perception was changing. He realised that having puppy is a good training for his's lazy daughters to develop caring, loving-kindness, learning how to giving love to someone and so on...
It was a nice and sweet night chat...

25 July 2009...
After having dinner in Sungai Long club, we persuaded mum to bring us to the Cannaught petshop.
Luckly us that it had a new puppy golden retriever just arrived the pet shop..Golden retriever is my dreaming puppy after seeing the documentary videos that golden retriever is good friends for blind peoples, helping to rescued victims in the earthquake and having 7 years old child' brain...
It sound it is a prefect dog
However, Meimei and me had not enough courage to have puppy due to my laziness and loving freedom charateristics.

26 July 2009
Early morning, all of us start acted hardworking in order to build up a good image for mum and get her permission for having a puppy at home.
Dad helped us to ask the workers to build up fetches higher to prevent the puppy run out from garden..
Ehm..everything sound good and it seen that our dreams to have puppy will be come true soon..
In evening, we were so excited and went to the pet shop again and buying the puppy.. RM 1790 with certificate and chips...
Our New Family Members...........

On the way back home, everyone was thinking of her name
Suggestions by
Dad- Emi
Mum- Diamond
Jing- Esther, money money in chinese, gold in chinese, money come in chinese...etc
Dhammesi- bou bou since Jing's dog is feibou.
So at last, we named it as Diamond....

Happy to be at home...
busy cleaning my room because SHE will sleep with us in our room, and our toilet will be the place for HER to shit and shower....
Starting and busy to clear HER "shit" because SHE still did not understand....
SHE is so shy, just walked around room and did not understand and scared to follow us went outside the room areas...
When the time she sleep, she keeped changing place to sleep... She is so cute...
All of us has to lower down our voices when the times she slept...
A good training for mum and all of us...
hahaha...


27 July 2009

什么也不是

悲伤随着快乐而离去， 快乐随着怨倦而消失；
失望里找希望， 希望里带来失望；

享受的过程体验无常的真理，
那么何来悲伤，何来快乐，
一切的感受，只不过像阵风与我们擦身而过。。。。

学习做个瀟潵的人！！！

害怕选择

一切发生的事都发生到太快速，
人生的选择，一个个的浮现，一个个的完成，一个个的跟着结束。
悲伤随着快乐而离去；快乐随着怨倦而消失；
信任因为一次次被骗的经验而学精，

心中的不安也因不知这选择是否对与错，好与坏，幸与不幸。。。
迷惑的选择，造成了迷惑的结果；
早晨的光线,唤醒了沈睡已久的我，
醒一醒吧。。。
是时候，出山一游做个选择去吧！！！！

寻找失去的回忆

一通电话,声音听起来很熟,当下即一时想不起他/她是谁...
这个五月的季节里,一种大地的呼唤声;
唤醒晓薇的内在深层的潜意识,
老朋友,失去连络的老同学...找一找曾经曾拥有过的感觉, 感情及共创的回忆录...

寻找回忆的痕迹
从音乐里找,
从电话里找,
从照片中找,
从思想中找,

原来我并不是孤单的....

原来....因此

回国后,
内心及思维所发出的平静,让自已的眼睛能看得更明亮;
让我有机会发现原来平时看不起眼及平凡的小事件也稳藏着它无限快乐的力量
等待我们去发现及开拓.

原来,
让自己的生活方式简单点, 生活因此也变得自由多了;
少给评语及看法, 生活因此也变得平静多了;
多一点点的忍耐, 生活因此也变得少烦恼;
多一点点的观照自己, 也因此让自己少犯同样的错误;
给彼此多一点的生活空间, 也因此让自己多了一点的发展空间;

不多也不少...
原来这也是一种快乐生活的方法！！

A time to say another goodbye..

A time to say another goodbye!!
2 months have been past, my life in Thailand is going to be end.
The 5 weeks life in Thailand can be summaried:
playing with thai language,thai 44 alphabet and 11 tones;
enjoying shopping in everywhere from street to the shopping mall;
learning the culture and technique of bargaining prices;
listening the argurnment and opinion of the two sides of politics views;
Feeling uncomfortable with the polutions airs and hot+humid weather;
A long journey from home to school, the destination of home still unable to reached after having a sleep inside the bus,a serious traffic jam in peak hours;

One experience, another memory...
Everything is past, the future is waiting me to write another memory, another history, another journey..
Never has beggining, Never has an end...

病丁

病了
不只是身体的累,内心也一样地病了.
内心总是发出一种声音及信讯,
听也不是,不听也不是,
说了也没有人明白.

很多过客告诉我
每个人都是为了完成自己生命中的使命而出生,
有些人走了大半人生,还在迷路中找不到自己生命的使命
有些人因为环境的变化,改变了原来的他...

而我呢?找到了使命却...
因为爱而苦!!
因为不勇不敢而迷路;
因为执着而绳着了自己的自由;
知道了放下的哲理,却不懂得放下.

牛年快乐2009

牛年,

一个有意义及非凡的一年；

有意义是因为24岁了,老了

非凡是大学生涯将要结束,一个难选择的旅程要开始了.

这24 年体验了多姿多彩的生活,

从出生在和平及逢衣足食的国家到有机会去穷困国家生活，让我学会感恩点点滴滴的快乐及不偷快的生活。

从修行到短期出家,体验了一无所有的日子；

从留学英国到回马上大学，体验了东方及西方的不同文化，思想及教育制度。

从以为亲情可贵到无利益无亲情的事件，让我们这几姐妹明白我们以后不能犯这么样的错误。

很难选择是因为

其实一无所有的日子也不比什么都有的日子来得差。

只要学会管教好自己的那颗心，到那儿都能找到幸福的痕迹。

成长的旅程就将要开始了!!

刚从马尼拉度假回去泰国. 泰国将会是我毕业后的第二个家。因为学校假期，将会在那儿学泰语至到下学期开课。

一个新旅程的开始, 它让我领悟到人生的旅程不是得到就是失去。得到了会失去；失去了会得到。
从有自己睡房, 茶室, 书法房，更衣室, 而现在的我只有一张床, 一大一小的行旅箱, 还在寻找一个多余的空间让自已可以看书, 写字,上网及摆放茶具的一张桌子.
从可以自由自在的驾驶自已的车到处去，而至今的我只能靠自已的那双脚走路去搭公共交通或等待搭顺风车。
从可以随心所意自想几时去冲凉都可以，而现在却是要拿号码等待冲凉。

成长的旅程就将要开始了。
曾经跌到的我，已经学会自已爬起来及面对受伤的疼痛。
今后，不论是因为自己的不谨慎, 还是被人不小心或故意推到在地上。我以然要自已勇敢的爬起来，自己去治疗伤口因为我已经成长了，将毕业了。

现在的我就像一粒榴连, 每个人都不用他的双手去拿因为害怕被刺到，而把他丢来丢去。 因为不知道拿榴连方法所以无法吃到榴连的内在美。
何时他人才会领悟到其实拿榴连只须用一只手去握着榴连头呢?

2008 年的最后一天

2008 年的最后一天
在马尼拉过2008 年的最后一天， 转眼间一年又过了。今年的唯一心愿就是能过顺利结束大学的学生生涯。
这一年,自己也成长了很多，身边也增加了很多的知己,同修及朋友，须要感恩的人也多了。
感谢父母的了解及疼爱让我有机会在这一年完成我想做的事,去体验我想体验的人生旅程。
今年，晓微的内在小孩也愿意成长了，愿意去面对社会的不完美。
今年,自己生命的使命也随着愿意成长而出现了。生命也因此有了生命力，感受到了生命的美妙.